Dear Jen

Dear Jen,

Do you ever struggle with self doubt?

I've been dealing with a strange combination of confidence and doubt. All summer I've felt a distinct surge in motivation and confidence. I've had a deep desire to be fulfilled creatively, and to have success in my career. I worked and worked and created something I'm proud of in my art. I'll look it over and be pleased, and know there are improvements to be made. But I feel satisfaction and pride in what I've accomplished.

Then doubt creeps in.

It's not just in art. It's in work, and parenting, and relationships. There is this pattern of confidence and success, and simultaneous apprehension and feelings of insufficiency.

It's as if I feel I don't deserve to be sure of myself. I cannot bare rejection.

The real question is, why do I care? Who is it that I am so worried about? Whose opinion is so important to me?

So I'm working on:

Keeping the confidence God is giving me.

Deciding I deserve it.

Not comparing myself to everyone.

Seeing myself through God's eyes.

Learning to move forward and accomplish something.

Finding my bravery, so I can have a little adventure in my life.

Love,
Emily